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May 5th, 2008

06:46 am    Good morning, all! *raises coffee mug* As you can tell from the tune, I am much recharged since we last spoke. Actually, this morning's selection brought to you by gumbuoy.  I read that he finished reading Bret Easton-Ellis' Less Than Zero, so my mind flitted to the Andrew McCarthy/Robert Downey Jr. movie adaptation, and there ya go.    Yesterday was nice. Went to the Farmer's Market, where I had a nice long walk and found lots of food-type goodness (nice, fresh eggs, some unroasted walnuts, and some truly amazing oranges with juice that dribbles down your chin) and I found a couple of really good books in a hole in the wall shop behind one of the stalls, where I got a nice hardcover edition of David Copperfield and a neat paperback edition of The Yellow Wallpaper and Other Stories. Then I came home, worked on the paper while I sipped my chai, and then, because I had 7 pages done and my prof only wanted a 5-8 page rough draft (out of 10), decided to hang it up for the day.     I took a nap for an hour, listened to Roxy Music's "Avalon" album, took a nice long bath, and just. hung. out. I read for pleasure, watched Arsenic and Old Lace, and put my laptop on a shelf in my closet for the night.    And I'm not even sorry for it.   I know this sounds weird, considering how truly goofy and doofus-y I can be (Beavis and Butt-head? Garbage Pail Kids? Bueller...Bueller...?) but my inner monologue can be very brutal with me at times. You know what I mean; that not so little voice that instills panic in you, tells you it's not good enough, goads and insults you into pushing 'til you're cracked out in front of the computer at three AM for the third night in a row running on coffee and adrenaline.    That part of me needs to...well, not die, because to be quite honest, it's what motivates me to get a lot done and pushes me in a lot of good ways, too. But I do need to learn the difference between internal discipline (good and allows me to do things like get a paper turned in a week early so I can focus on other things) and just beating yourself up (bad and, worse, not productive).     Anyhow, those are my thoughts for the morning. Hope your Monday treats you kindly :-)             Love and Cheers,                          Kai Current Music: Hazy Shade of Winter-The Bangles

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From: stratkitten Date: May 8th, 2008 02:30 am (UTC) Re: Amazing post! (Link)

Thanks :-)

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